Lifestyles

so I think the moral of yesterday's story is
"yes princess, you get to live your free spirit lifestyle yet another day."
and the princess was happy
and her dogs were happy
and all was well in the universe.

comments

hey, where are the comments?

doesn't anyone have anything to say?

hello hello hello hello?

California coast

grey skies

It's a gray day in this part my corner of the world. Luckily I have shelter, clothing & food. I really want for nothing.

Soon it will snow. I miss my friends I've been sent away from. Ah, this too shall pass.

I've a new mattress pad to keep my toes warm at night. Dressing my bed like someone I know, with lots of cush & plenty of pillows.

It's still a gray day.

residence

where will you live
until you die
silent like misery
denied as lost time?

where do you live
stuck in your mind
delayed by yourself
living knot in a bind?

how do we sea
ships lost but afloat
how can we love
sharing not of our boat?

Ian's Band- Duhkha

Dukkha, Duhka, suffering or unsatisfactoriness.
http://www.hermetica.info/Buddha2a.htm

just me

Congrats

Congratulations to all sobriety oriented individuals

especially those with 10 years under their belt

especially those wise enough

to not

ever take their sobriety for granted.

We should all remember,

each day is a present....

written June 24, 2004

Did you ever remember
what you forgot to forget?
Shadows of memories
dance across my days
I fear nothing
and all
at the same time

companionship

so interesting
deep friendships
can last forever
just like love
while lust
kicks up more dust
doesn't last as long
either way
it's a 4 letter word
powerful
like a storm
on a warm summer night
frequent lightning strikes
illuminate
only for brief seconds
or take a January snow
ice crystals
blow, whip around
creating sculptures, changing landscapes
killing
by frost
tender fingers of life
yet preserving, protecting
hidden strands underneath

gary

picture taken fall 2004

in memory

of Gary Reed

Oct 11, 1953-Oct 6, 2004

Gary

family pose
with baby tanya
summer 1981

Gary

outside Evergreen Colorado

picnicing with friends

summer 1981

gary

Wilson's Bar & Tap
Boone Iowa

sometime in the past

tallest-Gary Reed
sitting left to right
Jim, MK, Bill, Rod

dream hours

as he rolled over and looked at me
"I'll never hurt you" he said softly
I didn't look into his eyes
it's not that I didn't believe him
I didn't believe the line
perhaps it would be me
causing pain
perhaps something else
but there is always
pain

Less than a week later
we were over
a month of solid bliss
cuddling
great sex
playing house
getting along
tis over

I didn't see it coming
but I knew that coach would arrive
it always does
I'm a single princess
waiting for a prince
who wants
doesn't take much
just a desire
to be close
just a desire
to share
just a desire
to not
go alone

uncanny

my last words are almost upsetting they are so insightful.

and another month at Monarch and I am home. No lodge job for me. Can't get along with the other bitch in charge. Oh well. Guess I am not meant to be in Colorado right now. It's not that upsetting to my soul which almost surprizes me. and life charges on...

and the man. the man with blue eyes of steel. he sat quiet never passing judgement or offering an opinion of any kind to news of my departure. I'll close his book meant not to be written today and offer not paths to tears who may want to tell their own story.

pandora's box

once again
I feel blessed
or blind enough
to not see
rocks ahead

today I don't care
I love to hike
and waltzing down
safe paths
can be boring

I'll just say thanx
to unknown thrills
& any spills
yet to come

she needs no words

this is from Courtney's site.

Monarch Ski Lodge, Near Salida & Monarch Area For Hotel Lodging & Snowmobiling.

Everyone, let's go to Colorado!!!

holiday weekends

Happy 4th of July to everyone!


strange it seems something special should be happening, yet it's just another day. Weeds to pull, housecleaning to ignore. It's just another day. Can't wait till I can afford a housekeeper. I've decided it's really something I just do not like doing.

we did finally get rain though. My garden will love that.